I’m saying goodbye to this

Today I ate five cheese and ham sandwiches in about five minutes. I purged them all up and then cried that the scale didn’t give me the number I wanted. This was all before 8am.
I had my English Literature AS exam at 9am. I went in shaking stupidly and with the headache from hell. I’m sure as hell that I failed my exam and yes, I blame my ED.

I’m sixteen years old and I’m counting calories in EVERYTHING. I should be going out and eating healthily and exercising often. But not being obsessed with it! I should be enjoying my life! I want a boyfriend. I want friends. And I’ve lost so many because of this. However, I did gain some genuine people in my life who care, and I intend to keep them this time.

So I’m going to say goodbye and good luck to all of you. I’ve lost too much already, and believe me, it wasn’t weight.

I won’t delete this blog. I just will not use it. I love you all, and I thank you for everything you have done for me.. I just can’t live this way. I truly believe, that the only thing that is ugly about us, is our eating disorder.

Much Love <3

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thetruthliesonyourthighs-deacti: Hello :)
Daily body weight can fluctuate over 3lbs a day! Have you drank a lot of water the last few hours? And did you weigh yourself at the same time? Try weighing yourself at the same time every time to try eliminate this. Hope this helps babe, I know how frustrating it is! Xxx

Yep. Weighed myself as soon as I woke up two days ago and the same today.
It’s just really really frustrating man! xxx 

Can anyone tell me why I’ve GAINED weight please?

I was 108.4lbs two days ago, and now I’m 109.2lbs.
I’ve been going to the gym daily and doing cardio for about an hour.
I’ve been eating around 800-900 calories.
and I gained.
Help please eak. 

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I spent all last night crying because of what a mess my life is and then suddenly my friend called me, and asked if this guy could have my number because he thought I was beautiful.
awww 

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